And here I am listening to our song over and over again, thinking how much i miss you so bad.. after all these months, and being almost 2 years, i still miss you and your presence. tell me im stupid. maybe i woke up on the wrong side of bed and all this is unfolding. with the stress of school work and results. no one knows. no one knows how much i miss you right now. your hugs and kisses. the warmth you give me. the protection you provided. )': i miss you so much. everytime i told myself that im over you, that im happy it happened, i can never promise that i wont shed tears thinking about you in the future again. and well, here i am. heart super heavy and eyes tearing. who ever knew that i'll never be able to get over you.. all these crushes and eye candy somehow cant be compared to what you and i had. i just cant find the right words, honestly. why am i so screwed and sad on a sunday morning, i also dont know. one thing's for sure, i really wish i can hug you and make up and just be with you. i have no idea what it is about you that is so damn different that i feel this way. sigh. why.
in school, im back to my butterfly ways. not saying its good, but then again not saying its very bad. crushes come and go. eye candies too. can never understand what im fully feeling and i can never feel if its genuine. i dont knw if every like is a phase. and im too uptight with everything else. i just want to be there, singing for you like i used to.. talking to you like i used to.. too late now.. far too late.
i realise, it was only just a dream
