whats happening.
i no longer have control over myself. over everything. its gotten so bad that im resorting to this. i just have to do something about it but what? Fiq and i are like.. i have no idea what can describe us. why are we becoming like this? why why why. im feeling super horrible tonight and i think imma be sick but there's just nothing i can do right now. i've never felt so alone. ever )': this is real bad.. i really miss us too. im just so angry at myself right now. havnt had an emotional breakdown in awhile. i'll take it.
on the other hand i've just taken a step back to see the bigger picture and everything is happening again. like seriously.. me going head over heels.. unable to control.. putting yet again all my hopes on something that is just.. that. i wouldnt say im really putting my hopes on something.. but seriously? im disappointed in myself for going thru this route again. sigh.
how did i get here?